Archive for the ‘Personal’ Category



I’ve been fired. Or dumped. Whatever you want to call it, it happened to me. And I don’t care in the least, or at least only for purely selfish reasons. The boy in question: Homeboy. I know, I know. It’s sad and the end of an era, but I saw it coming. He told me […]

The serenity that I felt a few days ago is completely gone. I’m filled with an inner turmoil that I don’t know how to reconcile. My time in New York City has been better than anything I’d ever imagined. I’ve fallen in love harder than I ever have before and I feel an overwhelming, tight […]

Blogging changes people. I does some people loads of good and turns others into mindless numbfucks who spend too much time writing about themselves and not enough time examining what that says about them. I blog because I love to write. I love to write, and I’m decent at it and it’s a hobby I […]

The staying power of this relationship is extraordinary. I stare at him from across the room and I’m overcome with lust. He touches me and I get butterflies and goosebumps and I melt. I remember a year ago, when he would lean over and kiss me and I would get hot and faint. I’d have […]

I have huge tits. And it’s a huge problem. Yes sure, they make me nice and curvy. He likes them, and so do Homeboy and Jonathan (in fact, I can’t say I’ve ever met any straight guy who DIDN’T) and that’s certainly one of the benefits, but having a positive attitude towards my breasts is […]

bed wetting.


It’s been suggested that I ask my readers for help regarding a specific and important issue: What to do about female ejaculation. Most of you know by now that I’m not one of those girls that can’t come. In fact, it’s never been a problem for me. All I need is the tiniest bit of […]



He told me he loves me. He kissed me and looked me in the eye and as his voice cracked with nervousness he spat it out in almost a question. He wrapped his arms around me and kised me again and held me as I felt my insides flush hot and my skin tingle. He […]

meta musings.


I can’t sleep. I woke up at seven, hazy and delirious and itchy as hell. I slept at his place again, and he’s balled up and dreaming. I counted his breaths earlier, trying to lose myself in the rhythm of it and drop off to sleep, but to no avail. I’m a horrible sleeper. He […]

admission #3.


My first few days in NYC have left me feeling very unsettled and confused, not to mention lonely. I’m in strange spirits right now, so I’m leery about posting any updates about my status with him and me or how I feel about anything. I feel more like having some violent sex — something to […]

random musings.


I’m stuck in that insatiable phase of the month. I wake up dripping, I go to bed dripping. Sometimes in between I pleasure myself. It’s strange how my entire identity revolves so much around sex. Even when I’m doing something as mundane as folding laundry or reading as I cross-country-ski at the gym I’m thinking […]