Posts Tagged ‘relationships’

fired.

18Sep08

I’ve been fired. Or dumped. Whatever you want to call it, it happened to me. And I don’t care in the least, or at least only for purely selfish reasons. The boy in question: Homeboy. I know, I know. It’s sad and the end of an era, but I saw it coming. He told me […]


The serenity that I felt a few days ago is completely gone. I’m filled with an inner turmoil that I don’t know how to reconcile. My time in New York City has been better than anything I’d ever imagined. I’ve fallen in love harder than I ever have before and I feel an overwhelming, tight […]


The staying power of this relationship is extraordinary. I stare at him from across the room and I’m overcome with lust. He touches me and I get butterflies and goosebumps and I melt. I remember a year ago, when he would lean over and kiss me and I would get hot and faint. I’d have […]


silence.

07Jul08

He told me he loves me. He kissed me and looked me in the eye and as his voice cracked with nervousness he spat it out in almost a question. He wrapped his arms around me and kised me again and held me as I felt my insides flush hot and my skin tingle. He […]


meta musings.

15Jun08

I can’t sleep. I woke up at seven, hazy and delirious and itchy as hell. I slept at his place again, and he’s balled up and dreaming. I counted his breaths earlier, trying to lose myself in the rhythm of it and drop off to sleep, but to no avail. I’m a horrible sleeper. He […]


choked up.

08May08

There’s something wildly arousing about an empty room. Bare walls, bare mattress, empty drawers and empty counter-tops. Homeboy and I fucked on a sleeping bag topped with a towel so that he had somewhere to sleep after I left. He’d left his ropes and condoms unpacked, knowing full well that we’d need them before he […]


desperate boy.

06May08

I really like Jonathan. Our relationship has been slowly blossoming. He provides me with a lot of things I need that no one else is providing for me at the moment. Emotionally. I’m very comfortable with him — maybe it’s the fact that I know he likes me so much that he can hardly fault […]


I’m unbelievably and uncontrollably attracted to Jonathan, aka Pizza Boy. I feel a bit like I’ve been struck by a frying pan. Maybe it’s the suddenness I’m referring to. This has all set in so quickly. I’ll be really glad to get away from everything and just have a summer full of mind-numbing violent sex. […]


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11Apr08

The song comes on and I’m overwhelmed. Like the push of Iodine before an x-ray, I feel a warming in my blood. Memories float back — I’m napping in the sun and you come over and touch my hair. You’re sitting on my window ledge, smoking a cigarette and swigging from your bottle of gin. […]


boundaries.

09Apr08

Several scenarios that could really benefit from the opinions of the general public: 1- Sex Between Friends I find it unbearably difficult to keep myself from blurring the lines between friendship and sex. Unless a man is introduced to me as someone’s boyfriend, I find myself what it would be like to fuck him. (Actually, […]